I was frustrated .... now I feel sort of ok

December 14, 2010

I'm so frustrated.... I didn't want this blog to be negative but I'm so filled with negativity... I wrote this post thismorning but I had some problems with my computer and had to restart my computer... so I lost the blog because I didn't save it as a draft damn it .. so many things are going wrong this week... that everything makes me angry!!! I need to let out of this anger steam inside me! Not sure how... I'll try it.

Apart from that what is going on? hm. I'm running a bit late with sending Christmas cards to relatives and friends.. but there's time. I still have a bit more than a week before Christmas. Some will receive it in time others after New Year :)

December 16, 2010

I'm glad that I didn't post it but now that I have it saved as draft I'll post it nonetheless... it's just a testimony of my feelings and that day I just wasn't feeling well. I still feel weird and awfully tired. My sleep is soooo messed-up that I tend to sleep 4-5 hours daily ... (O_o) Last night I slept very, very little that I already notice the withdrawal symptoms... but I wrote some poems to kill the time and it helped. At least I did something useful with my time,... he's a short blog. I have to finish writing Christmas cards to my family to send it off. They will probably get it after Christmas because the mail will take much longer as it's this time of the year.

Thanks for everyone's support! I really appreciate it from you all!

I plan to make a new season next year, I just haven't set a date but I'm sure some of you might want to do a new too? if yes please let me know! I need to focus on how I want to create my life, the way I want it to be!! :)

Will write soon!

P.s. I'm still excited to get my free copy "Poetry Pieces of Europe" per mail. It should arrive before Christmas if all goes well with the postage :) I'm excited! I'll make a video when I get it wohoo!! :)

What should I write?? ∆ Too much anger inside me ∆

Post from Dec 13, 2010

I'm not sure what to write anymore and you guys are so silent lately *lol* :) but it's okay, I don't mind. I was silent too LOL :)

I had a tough week and the past few weeks were a bit strange. I mean I am doing well. I found a few man in my life and he is really amazing and our relationship is doing well. I really like him and we seem to get along very well.

However a few things just kept me down in the past few days that I simply don't know what to do to stay positive. There is just so much hate inside me that it's really hard... there's so much hate and pain that it's really hurting me.. It's difficult and complicated.

The good thing from this misery that I think I am in (maybe I'm not) anyhow.. from all this I can write some good dark poetry. It definitely isn't nice but it is poetry and I'm sure some people might find it appealing.. I don't know. At least I still keep writing and it is going somehow. I love to do it. I don't see it as a chore. I'm more delighted when I can write. It still makes me say "wow" it's still possible after almost a year still wow.. you know? :) I love it!!

I don't know what next year will bring and how it will turn out but I hope I can write some more. I want to enjoy this creative flow a bit longer and I hope it will last forever :)

Thank you for reading! I'll stop here because I need to get some sleep. I'm supposed to be in the city at 9 AM :)

Sandra